Thursday, July 30, 2009


I was looking through an old writing book i have the other day. I came across a poem i wrote when we were TTC. I am a very big poem writer and often use it to express how i am feeling. I have so many poems written everywhere. Its interesting to look back on the feelings that i was having at that time and see how my life is so different now that we finally have our little baby with us. Here is the poem that i found.

The heart bleeds, the heart cries
You feel like your empty inside
Every moment you make a simple wish
Just once will it come true

As each day passes a little hope dies
Why can’t I hide from everything inside
In the distance you see a glimpse of hope
As time flies by it all fades to dust

Only time will tell, when the dream is sold
Filling books with my tears and words
It’s all the same stuff
My journey, my hurts

The life that I have lived
The years that have passed

It’s only a short time the heart can last.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Time is too fast

I cant believe how quickly everything is going. Levi is growing so fast i cant keep up. I look back at his little baby pictures and he was so small, and now he is a little chubba. I love his chubby little cheeks and his massive gummy smile.

People keep asking me if motherhood is what i expected, my answer "Its the best thing in the world and much more than i expected." How could you even imagine that you would love something so small more than anything in the entire world. More than life itself. I think Levi's face is going to worn out from all the kisses he keeps getting from me, i mean you can just kiss those cheeks once. Come on.